14 Days

At work last night, I was thinking about how I am going to maintain my sanity for the next two weeks before reading break is over. My need to feel, look, be... skinny is slowly dissipating into a throbbing desire to be confident in my body and to have some amount of control. I have 3 exams to write yet, and I need to have some structure.

I got up this morning and binged for almost 2hrs. Not even a vegetable-ladden binge, but a real binge. I haven't... It's been almost three weeks singe I've done that. Ugh. It feels awful. The worst part? I have to shower still, so I have to face the consequence. Maybe it's a good thing then...

As I was saying, at work I decided that I needed a plan for the next 14 days. Something that is flexible enough to not provoke my latent, ever-present OCD and self-mutilating tendencies, but also something that I can rely on.

So here is my 14 Revitalize Plan
Focus on abs: My arms are alright, my thighs/hips can't be helped by anything other than rapid weight loss. If I can get rid of (or at least tighten) my flabby middle, maybes strengthen my legs, maybe I can live with this for a while. This means:

• 100 Crunches a day (min 25 at a time)
  
• 150 Bicycles a day (min 25 at a time)
• 50 Squats
• 50 Push ups (girl ones count... for now!)

Move more: Take at least one 15minute walk everyday

Stretch: Commit to morning (before showering) and evening (before bedtime) stretches and call Chiropractor to get some for strengthening my back.

Take Control: I am almost 18. I need to start accumulating my assets under my own name and begin to become more independent.

• Get all banking information under my name, invest and open school savings account
• Change phone plan + start paying for my own bills
• Sign up for Driver's Education

Revitalize: I crave variety. I become happier if I hang around different people, do different things, focus on what I need to focus on and play later.

• Commit at least 1hr to studying everyday
• Apply to 5 more scholarships by Feb 1st
• Download one new album everyday
• Take a day and go explore downtown - shopping, art, entertainment
  
• Take my camera and take one picture, with a purpose and meaning, everyday
• Make an effort to have time and energy to be with people
• Organize my room (it might take 14 days...)

...and that's it.
Wish me luck :)
And thank you for your comments on my last post. They made me feel a little more at ease.

This is my day 1 picture :) It's a self portrait of sorts... I thought it appropriate. Love the colors of this fence.

Oh! P.S Leave a suggestion for any music I should look at! I'd love so see what you all listen to.